Somehow between the socializing and the serving and the working and the taking care of everyone else, you and I just aren't as … together as usual.
We're not fighting.
But we're more like roommates instead of best friends. More like co-laborersinstead of lovers. Like the teeniest, tiniest cracks are forming at the joint where two became one almost fourteen years ago.
And two becoming one means there shouldn't be any cracks.
But the cracks can happen quickly. And if we let pride or hurt feelings or busy-ness even in good things keep us from sealing up the cracks, they might just become gaps.
Because gaps happen quickly, too.
And the thing about gaps is that if they're left to themselves they get big enough for another woman or another man to squeeze in, and you and I aren't above that.
But for God's grace, we could be in that place.
And that, too, can happen quickly.
Not only that, but there are also several little people who might just fall into the gaps between us. And by the time they make their way out again, they will be very different people.
So tonight after little people are in bed and distractions are our choices rather than our responsibilities, I'm going to turn off my laptop and turn off the TV and stop folding laundry and put down my grocery list and I'm going to look into your face and listen to you.
I'm going to take action and apply the glue to seal up the cracks right now, while it's only been a few days instead of a few weeks or months or years.
I'm going to be intentional about making you my first earthly priority. And I'm going to hold you and kiss you like I mean it and tell you I've been missing you.
While I still remember what closeness feels like. What one-ness feels like. What us feels like.
Are you missing me, too? Because this could all be in my head. It's entirely possible that the distance I'm sensing could be overactive hormones or my imagination getting the best of me.
Loving child of Almighty God, adoring wife, homeschooling mother of three, and foster mom to more, Jennifer is active in teaching and music ministries in her local church. She's passionate about encountering her Savior and about encouraging others to do the same. She would be honored to have you visit her at A Divine Encounter, where she writes about building a real-life faith through relationship with God. Jennifer would love to connect with you; please look for A Divine Encounter on Facebook!